I’m just starting my journey of finding my true self.

I have very recently come out as bisexual, and as a male-to-female (mtf) crossdresser, to a very dear gay girlfriend of mine. She was so pleased and proud of me and is offering her unconditional support.

I have dressed in private for many years, but now feel I want to be more open and in touch with my feminine side. I have been married for 33 years, and although I tried previously to discuss this with and dress in front of my wife, she was unable to deal with it and so I had to stop. Had I not stopped, I would have lost her.

My sexuality has been an ongoing struggle for so many years. Recently, I was able to finally embrace this part of me and accept it into my life.

My wife and I have suffered a turbulent few years with other struggles, family wise, and I don’t want to force my sexuality and gender exploration on her again. That said, I need to be true to who I am and find a way for this to fit into our lives.

I know that I cannot realise my bisexuality physically, but I feel happier having made these steps on self-acceptance within myself.

Recently, I put myself on a waiting list so that I can begin counselling and exploring my inner thoughts. For the first time in my life, I am feeling OUT and I am feeling PROUD.

I am excited for my future.