2021 was the hardest year of my life. The battle of back and forth in a divorce, trying to find myself again and heal my soul for my wife & children. I don’t want my children to have to heal from their parents. I am always looking at myself and seeing the ways I can improve as a human and mother.
The past is in the past now, and of course that doesn’t make what happened to me go away, but I also know my children shouldn’t have to suffer without their father because of our failed marriage.
I spent the entire weekend with my ex and his new wife. My children had the best time ever, and it was even fun for me and my wife. Now I’m not saying it was easy, there were somethings that I saw I needed to still heal from, and that’s okay. Healing doesn’t happen overnight and its honestly a lifetime process. I also knew this weekend wasn’t about me, it was about my children. Allowing them to make memories with their father and seeing us successfully co parent together again.
Letting go of the hurt and pain, moving forward with nothing but love for our children. They are all that matters in the end.
Being a mother is one of the hardest things I deal with on a daily, you have to die to your own feelings and wants every day and put those innocent beautiful beings you created before yourself. Heal your mind, body and soul, so your children don’t have to heal from you.
Author: Krista Smith
Titles: Personal Trainer, Pole teacher, Bikini Model, Wife, and Mother